i'm losing it... i'm even plagued by nightmares that made me like sit up from sleep... i'm that scared...the world has gone raving mad!

i need my diary... badly... but i haven't found one nice enough... sheesh. anyone noes where to get a nice journal? coz i have finished my last one...

need to rationalise...

and pple do me a favour... dun ask me wat happen, it'll remain a secret and it doesn't involve anyone... perhaps... besides, no one will understand and i dun care about explaining... nv have been one who noes how to express my feelings so i see no need in confiding on anything deep... it's not tt my friends are no help... it's me and my stupid belief... it will not help even if i said anything... just make myself look worse...